Fear Didn't Win, I Did
If you are reading this right now that means fear didn’t win. I published my blog and reclaimed my voice. As a child, I had a “gift” for speaking the truth, but truth can be a burden and it can also be dangerous, especially to those unwilling to hear it. At 7 you learn to conform to your surroundings and adapt your personality based on the environment provided. At some point I was silenced, I molded myself to fit the world around me. Fear of judgement, fear of saying the wrong thing, fear of how my words would land. I chose to not speak. Knowing my words held power and knowing people were waiting for me to speak. Years passed, filled with words I swallowed and moments I let slip away. “You are so soft-spoken”, I spoke only in whispers, terrified of the weight my truth may carry.
I never had more than a hand full of friends and I spent too much of my early 20’s alone. that solitude, I poured my energy into self-discovery and healing. I didn’t think about how much a group could shape your social skills and sense of self. For a while I thought I didn’t have a personality- or that I had I lost it. Every time I was around people, especially my family, it made me feel like an outcast. What’s wrong with me? That question is rooted in self-doubt, it assumes you are the problem. It is a dead end, not a path to enlightenment.
Eventually I met people that received me like a breathe of fresh air. Their presence helped me see my worth and purpose. Years ago ,I started this blog, but imposter syndrome and low confidence murder the idea before it could grow. I abandoned it and went back to spirituality, (possibly abusing it) chasing enlightenment and purpose. Only to be reminded that I am already on the right path- I kept getting in my own way. Rebel Radiance is the rebrand, born from four years of growth, failures, and revelations. I left my business out of fear and spent two years working 50 hour work weeks and hopping between jobs I hated. Over that period I wrote 50+ articles in secret. Tbh it is no reason why it has taken 4 years – its not because I wasn’t ready, its because I was afraid. Rebel Radiance is the matured, unapologetic me- thats TIRED and done being afraid.
Rebel Radiance is a space created for people that are ready for a community of like-minded individuals who are transforming a life they are no longer satisfied with. It’s more than building a career, it’s about reshaping how you see yourself and how others perceive you. The essence of Rebel Radiance is curating a life that in unapologetically you. This is not all love and light. Many of the topics discussed require heavy shadow work and self-reflection. Rebel will challenge you to confront your fears, break through self-imposed limits, and hold yourself accountable. Pushing through the discomfort will lead you to your power and your truth. Here you’ll be free to live authentically.
